12 Steps 1 God » step 1

Why won’t I trust God?

Friday, June 12th, 2009

I can’t control what happens, no matter how hard I try. Why won’t I just trust God? Why do I still think that I know what’s best? Why do I limit what God can do in my life by interfering? Back to the steps.

I have a choice

Thursday, June 11th, 2009

Step One – “We admitted we were powerless over alcohol-that our lives had become unmanageable.” I am powerless over alcohol. I am just plain powerless. My life has become unmanageable. I have ignored so many responsibilities. I’m in complete and utter denial.

Wrecking ball of chaos

Sunday, June 7th, 2009

I have to admit that I’m powerless over alcohol. I can only remember a few occasions when I drank and didn’t get drunk. Within the last six months, it was the night I went out dancing. I did get a buzz but not drunk, but I wished I could have, so I could have had more fun. I am powerless over alcohol because I don’t want to stop once I start, and I almost always just can’t stop once I start. I anticipate the euphoria and start chasing that “high” after the first drink, the first sip.