I just got out of the 8:00pm open discussion meeting. I got there 5 minutes late, and the meeting chairperson purposely made sure that I didn’t get a chance to share. Prick. But it was for the best. I was meant to really listen and not get wrapped up in my own bullshit. The topic was humility and gratitude. I do not have humility. I’m a prick. I have no gratitude. I’m a spoiled brat.

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I got my 30-day chip today. It felt good like I had accomplished something. I have had problems sticking with things in my life. I will start doing something, like the Shaolin Kung Fu classes I started in May 2008, but stopped going less than a year into the program. BTW – I have decided [...]

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Last night, the night before my 30-day sobriety anniversary on July 3, I had my first user dream. The irony is that I attended an AA meeting last Saturday while visiting my family in Houston. I didn’t much care for the topic: user dreams. I didn’t know what the hell a user dream was, and I was certain that I wasn’t going to have any user dreams because alcohol just wasn’t THAT important to me.

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I wonder what the word “sober” means in the dictionary. Does it just mean not drunk? Or does it have a broader and deeper meaning? Is there more to living a “sober” life than just not drinking?

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The Big Book says, “What is his trouble? Is he not really a self-seeker even when trying to be kind? (p. 61) That describes me. I’ve always been self-centered and unable to feel empathy for almost anyone. I have never wanted to let my guard down. I’m afraid I will lose the people who love me. I am afraid they will know how imperfect I am. I think it’s ironic in galactic proportions that I wrote, “I am afraid they will know how imperfect I am.”

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