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Xanax, coffee, and becoming a real person

Sunday, June 21st, 2009

I took a Xanax last night to fall asleep. It’s been awhile since I had to take one at night. I took one last week on vacation when I was feeling really anxious during the day. What’s the difference between taking a Xanax to fall asleep and drinking enough wine to pass out? I don’t know what the answer is…a prescription?

Are we the prisoners in Plato’s cave?

Saturday, June 13th, 2009

From the chapter on Step 1 (p.21) – “Our admission of personal powerlessness finally turns out to be firm bedrock upon which happy and purposeful lives may be built.” This is true. I’m beginning to see that my false sense of power over all aspects of my life has been like a prison. In this prison, there is no true happiness and no purpose in life. It’s unbelievably easy to live in a prison and not even know it, especially when you’ve been there for as long as you can remember. This thought reminds me of Plato’s Cave…