Saturday, August 15th, 2009
JD’s comment about my blog: I’m simply a person like you, too. I am not an alcoholic, although alcohol was one of the many drugs I used in my active addiction and I cannot safely drink it. I also rely on the 12 steps of AA (as adapted by my own fellowship) and the God of my understanding for my daily survival and well-being. (I’ve been “clean & sober” for 25 yrs.) Even though I am not an alcoholic, I am a grateful member of AA because the only requirement is a desire to stop drinking, which I have.
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Tuesday, August 11th, 2009
About a month ago, a member of my home group invited me to attend this other group she goes to once a week for a Big Book study. It sounded good…focusing on the Big Book. When I got to the church, I was shocked at the number of people. After opening the meeting, me and a friend along with others who were new to the group, were ushered off into a small cramped, hot room with an “AA teacher” (I will explain). We were told we had to go to this other meeting…strange? It got stranger.
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Saturday, July 25th, 2009
I attended a meeting Saturday night at The Magdalen House aka Maggie’s House, free non-medical detox center that offers women a safe place to withdraw from alcohol abuse in Dallas, Texas. I had spent Friday night and most of Saturday feeling sorry for myself. I didn’t attend a meeting on Friday. I slept until 3:00pm [...]
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Saturday, July 4th, 2009
When I first read a few pages in The Big Book (actually before attending an AA meeting), I thought it sounded like some crazy Wizard of Oz story. That initial impression has stuck with me. My initial attachment of skepticism to this comparison has transformed into faith. It’s a comforting comparison now. I shared this [...]
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Monday, June 15th, 2009
What is manipulation? I think it’s when you purposefully do or say things to illicit a reaction that you believe will benefit you without regard to its impact on others. In other words, I want what I want to fulfill my needs at all costs.
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Sunday, June 14th, 2009
Why did I try so hard all the time to convince myself that I was living the life I wanted? Is happiness so elusive that we’ll do anything to get it? And in the process of doing anything to get it, we only get a mirage of happiness, an illusion of happiness, but since our lives are so artificial, so much self-made fantasy, we seem to be just fine with the mirage. It never ends. And one day, we simply can’t tell the difference anymore. One day, we don’t want to know the difference anymore.
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Saturday, June 13th, 2009
From the chapter on Step 1 (p.21) – “Our admission of personal powerlessness finally turns out to be firm bedrock upon which happy and purposeful lives may be built.” This is true. I’m beginning to see that my false sense of power over all aspects of my life has been like a prison. In this prison, there is no true happiness and no purpose in life. It’s unbelievably easy to live in a prison and not even know it, especially when you’ve been there for as long as you can remember. This thought reminds me of Plato’s Cave…
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