Brother went to meeting with me
Sunday, June 28th, 2009
I traveled to Houston yesterday to visit family. I was so glad my brother agreed to go to an AA meeting with me last night.
I have to clean house soon
Friday, June 26th, 2009
I have to clean house soon. I have to get on with Step 4. I have to literally clean house. My room is a wreck like my life.
How should you choose a sponsor?
Thursday, June 25th, 2009
How should you choose a sponsor? Should you do Step 5 with your sponsor or someone else? What are your other choices? A member of the clergy, a family member, a best friend, a spouse or significant other. For me, these were not other choices. I’m not anywhere close to doing Step 5, but I think it’s an important topic for a newcomer like myself because it’s something to consider when choosing a sponsor.
It’s gotta be done
Tuesday, June 23rd, 2009
It’s actually very, very late. I can’t sleep. My sponsor gave me a packet to work. It’s more than I thought it would be. I haven’t started on it yet. At tonight’s meeting, I admitted that I didn’t want to start on Step 4. This old timer said it’s gotta be done.
Xanax, coffee, and becoming a real person
Sunday, June 21st, 2009
I took a Xanax last night to fall asleep. It’s been awhile since I had to take one at night. I took one last week on vacation when I was feeling really anxious during the day. What’s the difference between taking a Xanax to fall asleep and drinking enough wine to pass out? I don’t know what the answer is…a prescription?
Bag of bricks
Saturday, June 20th, 2009
I still don’t have a sponsor, and I’m not sure where to start with Step 4. What I’m starting to see is that all the lies start to stack up like bricks, and life begins to feel heavy. Doing this moral inventory will be like removing bricks one by one from the bag I’ve been dragging behind me all these years.
Don’t ask about dating (part 2)
Saturday, June 20th, 2009
“We treat sex as we would any other problem. In meditation, we ask God what we should do about each specific matter. The right answer will come, if we want it. God alone can judge our sex situation. Counsel with persons is often desirable, but we let God be the final judge. We avoid hysterical thinking or advice.”
